Showing posts with label life lessons. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life lessons. Show all posts

Saturday, April 6, 2013

On Doing Nothing...

"You're always so busy!"

"If you keep busy, time will fly by!"

"It's so great that you're able to stay busy while Mike's gone."

Busy, busy, busy. 

My (and others') philosophy for the last three months has been "Keep busy and this will all be over soon." But you know what? Six months is six months. Whether you fill every second with activities or if you sit and stare at the wall each weekend. It's always six months. I'm a scientist. I understand this concept in my head, but my heart tried to believe something else. And in this process, I wore myself out.
  • Starting Crossfit
  • Running a 10K
  • Volunteering for a fashion show, a science festival, a robotics competition
  • Hosting a brunch
  • Hosting a girls' night
  • Planning a girls' weekend
  • Biking 30 miles
  • Biking 50 miles
  • Working a garage sale fundraiser
  • Taking an online class
  • Taking a classroom class
  • Review this
  • Attend that
  • Work on those
It's all been SO fun, but I'm pooped! Over the past week, I've come to the conclusion that I do want to just spend some time by myself working on my stuff. Fun stuff. I was going to try to make fewer commitments so I could focus on myself. (Right after I e-mail Ellie to see if she wants to go to this health festival with me on Sunday....DOH!) 

This morning I volunteered for the Girls Inc. "Girls Rock It into the Future" science festival. After enjoying my free pizza today, I walked to my car and suddenly I was scared. The free time I'd been longing for all week suddenly stared me in the face. My mind raced: "I should go shopping." "No, I need to get things done at home." "No I should relax and watch shows on Netflix." "No, I'll just feel like I'm wasting my time!" Fortunately, I hit the ground running when I got home. Staple the screen on the patio so Pants can go outside? Check. Sweep the patio so it doesn't look like it's been abandoned for a decade? Check. Sweep? Empty the dishwasher? Make a juice? Check. Check. Check! I was feeling pretty good about my afternoon "off!" I'm sure the anxiety that stems from Wichita State playing in the Final Four fueled my cleaning extravaganza, but it's so nice to be able to enjoy a clean home!

Since I'm naturally drawn to new experiences, it's going to take practice not signing up for every event, class and opportunity that crosses my path. I do have some fun things planned over the coming months,  and I know more fun things will pop up, but hopefully I can save some time for myself...so I can just "do nothing." :)

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

Goodbye, Old Friend

Today I say goodbye to an old friend. A friend who served me well and got me through good times and bad. She saw so many chapters of my life and helped shape who I am today. Since I was 17, she has given me an invaluable gift: Freedom.

Who is this friend, you may ask? A 2000 Toyota 4Runner SR5 in Stellar Blue Pearl with a gold package, which I lovingly refer to as The Runner. 

Here are a few photos of The Runner over the years....

Oklahoma snow during my Freshman year of College

Hanging out with my cousins, Donovan and Drew, Summer 2002


I did it! I graduated! Now to add an OU Alumni tag holder to The Runner!
The Runner has done a LOT of traveling. She's seen the Las Vegas Strip, the Colorado Rockies, Bourbon Street in New Orleans and everywhere in between. I sometimes wonder if she couldn't navigate I-35 on her own and I could just take a nap in the backseat....
One of many road trips. This pic was taken in Austin after driving down from Norman.

Winter weather: not The Runner's favorite, but she' performs well in it.

My inability to sit upright in my wedding dress meant I got the backseat to myself!
There's been some impostors over the years...

A purple "Surf" in Japan

Spotted in Baton Rouge before an LSU game. A very appropriate vehicle for an LSU fan.
(You know it's not mine because it doesn't have the silver tire flares!)

It's transported us to countless races. This is Sarah, Ellie and I before the Mission 10K, April 2011.

The Runner was broken into back in May of 2011. They stole my GPS and all my CDs. The joke was on them as half the CDs were one's I'd burned (no value) and the other half were from 2003 or earlier. 


In 2012 she sported an OU Texas plate! Oh, the irony!
So today, after over 12 years and 162,000 miles together, she'll be traded in for a new vehicle (more to come on that!). Who knows what will come of her. I do hope that she winds up with another adventurous girl so that The Runner can give her the same gift she gave me.

Freedom.

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

3 Things I Learned at the 2012 Texas Conference for Women


In October, I attended the 2012 Texas Conference for Women  in Austin. It was a HUGE conference with over 5,000 attendees (everything's bigger in Texas...). There were many "celebrities" there (in my book, at least) like Gretchen Rubin, Danielle LaPorte and Cathie Black. I was also introduced to some new rockstars like Brene Brown and Lauren Berger.
That's a lot of seating!

The conference consisted of a morning keynote address, two breakout sessions (each with about 10 options), a lunch keynote and then many different activities in the afternoon. There was also a Health and Wellness Expo with the conference. It was overwhelming to say the least. I got to Austin at about 7am, grabbed my complimentary French Toast Sticks and coffee from the Peached Tortilla food truck, whipped out my conference program and started to map out my day.
French Toast Sticks and Sbux!

I really think I optimized my experience. I won't give you a blow-by-blow, but here are my top three takeaways:

1) Vulnerability = Strength

I think many people hear "vulnerability" and think "weakness." Brene Brown suggests that is actually shows strength. She currently has the 2nd most watched TED talk ever about The Power of Vulnerability. In her book, Daring Greatly, she talks about how vulnerability (at the right time and place, of course) can really help us move forward in relationships and other undertakings. She talked about how giving good feedback puts us in a place of vulnerability, but often is much more effective and productive. Good communication also requires some vulnerability. One thing that really resonated with me was when she said when you do something brave, your are almost always being vulnerable. Think of a time when you were brave. Were you also at a place of vulnerability?

2) Be Clear on How You Want To Feel

The second breakout session I went to covered defining success in your own terms and included a panel of four women: Alyce Alston, CEO of CultureMap Austin; Laren Berger, the Intern Queen; Danielle LaPorte, author of The Fire Starter Sessions; and Wilka Toppins, attorney and founder of The Corporate Latina. Here are the highlights:
  • "If you feel like you're faking it more than not, you're in the wrong place. Don't fake enthusiasm." - Danielle LaPorte
  • Alyce talked about she made the move from a really swanky job to a position at Reader's Digest. Some of her friends and family questioned the move, but in the end the position at Reader's Digest  better used her strengths and she enjoyed her work more. Lauren added that she worked for a talent agency in LA which represented many high-profile celebrities. Her friends all envied her job, but all she talked about was how she wanted to be the Intern Queen. Sometimes society's image of success doesn't align with what makes us feel successful.
  • Wilka talked about how sometimes we make decisions that lead to imbalance in our lives. We need to forgive ourselves for these decisions, learn from them and then do what needs to be done to regain balance. 

3) Outer Order Creates Inner Calm

I've been a firm believer in this for several years now. Having a neat and orderly home really does put your mind in a better place. Gretchin Rubin addressed this in her keynote speech at the beginning of the conference and talks about it more in her books The Happiness Project and Happier at Home. She suggests making your bed and purging your possessions since the project our identity into our environment. When purging, it's good to ask yourself "Do I use it? Do I need it? Do I love it?" If you don't answer "yes" to one or more of those, ditch it!


Gretchin talks about Happiness at Home
Of course I learned a lot of other great things throughout the day and I took several pages of notes! It was a great experience and I'm so excited to attend the Massachusetts Conference for Women next year!

Sunday, April 8, 2012

Our Lenten Fast: 40 Days on Minimum Wage

I hope you all had a great Easter weekend! Mine was spent relaxing and getting things done around the house since Mike had to make a last minute trip home to see family.

Mike and I have a very young tradition (2 years) of giving up something for Lent even though neither of us practices a religion that observes Lent. We view it as a good, finite amount of time where other people are making sacrifices, too, and we always like a good challenge. (We've both been known to give things up separately. Mike has given up things like soda and fried food in Lents gone by. I gave up alcohol for 2008.)

Last year we were vegetarian for 40 days. We learned that eating out is very challenging when you're vegetarian and most meals consist of a lot of carbs and a lot of cheese. Eventually we got the hang of it and I would guess we eat a lot less meat than we did before. Well, at least Mike does. I tend to lean towards vegetarian choices anyway.

This year, we considered giving up processed foods, but really where do whole foods end and processed food begin? Is flour processed? Pasta? Milk? There wasn't a clear line. Then our ideas turned financial in nature. I suggested we give up spending unnecessarily, but we agreed there was a lot of grey area there as well. ("Just how necessary is it that we eat out tonight?") So it became clear we'd need some sort of budget. Mike suggested that we build a budget based on us each being employed part-time in minimum wage jobs. To make it more interesting I "worked" at the Starbucks down the street and he "worked" at the sub shop next door. It's highly likely that one or both of these businesses pays better than minimum wage, but let's not get caught up in the details, yes?

Mike did a lot of research and set up the following budget:


Needs
Rent (w/fixed utilities)
$622.

Health Insurance
$280

Renter’s Insurance
$20

Car Insurance
$110.60

Gas
$100

Groceries
$360



Wants
2 iPhones (AT&T)
$136.85

Gym Membership
$101.64

Misc
$55.79



Savings
Pay of Credit Card
$50

Emergency Fund
$0

Save For Retirement
$0



Total Income (after tax)
2 ppl, 34 hrs/week
$1836.88
Total Needs
62%
$1492.60
Total Wants
36%
$294.28
Total Savings
3%
$50
Remaining

$0
Total cash for groceries/shopping/entertainment
$415.79



So really the take away from this is, after rent, bills, and gas, each week we had $103.95 for groceries and whatever else we needed to purchase. But look how responsible we are! We have health insurance and renters insurance and we pay for the gym! Those are all real life numbers that Mike calculated, too. He even identified an apartment complex down the road where all bills were paid including TV and internet. If this had been a real life scenario I would have immediately kissed the gym goodbye. I've been threatening to anyway, but we wanted to continue to go throughout Lent, so we factored that into the budget.

So this was pretty eye opening. I'm used to spending about $100 on groceries each week, and that's in addition to going out to each a few (*coughcough* several) times a week. How were we going to spend significantly less on groceries while at the same time almost never eating out? As it turns out, this wasn't really as challenging as it sounds, which makes me wonder how much we were wasting before.  I got a little overdramatic in the beginning and went to a cheaper version of my favorite grocery store, Central Market. I bought like 3 lbs of chicken breast for $2/lb. That's what those "couponers" do, right? That's when I learned that, for me, grocery shopping was more of an "experience" than I realized. This place didn't have the same "feel" that Central Market does.

So for the rest of Lent, I went to Central Market and just shopped smarter. We at a lot less meat and no seafood. We started making things at home that we would normally purchase, like cookies and bread. We made big batches of oatmeal each weekend and Mike and I ate breakfast all week on $2.50. Of course, we had a good supply of eggs, but they weren't exactly free -- we paid $20 for chicken feed the week before we finished. I also cleaned out the pantry by planning meals around items we already had. I think the least I spent on a week's worth of groceries was $41 and that fed us all week as we never went out to eat more than once or twice in a week.

We started to get creative. Gift cards were fair game. Instead of going out to dinner, a treat at Starbucks using a gift card from Christmas was good enough. Mike had a lot of home improvement items he needed to return to Lowe's and Home Depot. This resulted in over $200 in gift cards. We used that money to purchase plants and other landscaping necessities. We started selling books, clothes, and gadgets on Amazon and eBay and gathered items for a garage sale that we'll have in a couple weeks. We had a Groupon for a really upscale restaurant and we meticulously planned which meal we would share (and pay the split plate fee of $4!) before we got there.

There were some hiccups, too, of course. I went to pick up my specialty plates for the car which I had purchased a few weeks before. The woman informed me that I still owed another $10. Knowing I had to purchase groceries when I was done at the tax office, I hung my head in frustration. On the first day of Lent, Mike forgot to shave before going to work and had to spend ~$2 on shaving supplies at the BX! Every time we encountered an unexpected expense, I was reminded that so many people face these challenges every day and they have no end date to soften the blow.

Here's some other things I learned throughout this process:

  • We have awesome friends. We weren't doing this because we legitimately needed to save money, but hey a penny saved is a penny earned, right? We had so many friends offer to cover us in different situations. When we traveled to Fort Worth for a race and stayed with our friends, Grant and Ashley, they provided us with dinner, breakfast AND lunch! During a night on the town with a big group of friends, a couple of the guys each bought Mike a beer. We were treated to gelato more than once by our good friends Geoff and Ellie. Ellie's parents took us to brunch when they were visiting one weekend and my mom sent us a Target gift card. :) I felt kind of bad, because mooching off friends and relatives was NOT the point of this experiment, but then I reminded myself that it just means we have really great friends and family!
  • Weekends are freer. We found we had a lot of "extra" time on our weekends. We had time to clean the entire house ever Saturday morning, spend time reading or pursuing other interests, and organizing rooms/drawers/closets that had been neglected. I can't tell you exactly what we would have been doing if we weren't on a budget, but my guess is something like going out to lunch and going shopping. And for what? We obviously don't need more stuff! 
  • In many ways, this isn't sustainable for us. I can see how people on a budget like this are tempted to ditch important expenses like insurance. Like I said earlier, the gym membership would be canceled ASAP if this was a real situation. During Lent, I didn't get a hair cut and we didn't buy any cat food (at $1.30/day!!). I had several doctors appointments for my acid reflux that were not counted against our budget. I wasn't willing to compromise anyone's health for this experiment.
  • In many ways, it is. We don't need to spend $100 at the grocery store each week and we can certainly stand to eat out less than we were before. Before this we felt like we had to get out of the house on a Saturday, but now we realize there's a lot to be done at home.
  • When you're living on this little, it's hard to get ahead. Sure we're making payments on that credit card (Mike made that up because we figured there would be some sort of debt repayment or savings), but it's hard to stock up on items like paper towels or toilet paper because the large packages are so gosh darn expensive, so you end up paying more per unit for a smaller package because that's all you can spare that week.
  • My meal planning, ingredient substituting and price estimating skills are now razor sharp. On Saturday I'd plan out the meals for the week using a Google Calendar that I share with Mike so he could see what's for dinner each day. After I planned the meals, I'd enter the ingredients into my Grocery IQ app (if you don't have it, get it!!). From there, I'd do a rough estimate of how much the groceries would cost. My initial estimate was usually within $10 or so. In the beginning I kept a running total on pen and paper as I shopped so I wouldn't go over. That's when I found out there was no tax on food in San Antonio!!!!! The total I'd added up in my head would be SPOT ON with the total at the register. After a couple weeks of this I decided to try out the pricing feature on my app. Mike would enter prices as we'd check items off. Then we'd get to the cash register and announce our total. We never got those numbers to match for various reasons (the app is almost too smart really), but it was always close enough to grab the attention of the cashier. More than once we explained our mission. 
  • Everyone thinks it's a cool idea and wants to try something similar. Mike and I aren't special. There's nothing different about us. We see something we want, so we go for it. We don't wait for it to fall in our lap. Sure there's a lot of planning and it's hard work and sometimes frustrating, but it's cool and we're so much better for it in the end!
So, whether by coincidence or circumstance, our calendar for April is extra full. Not a free weekend in sight! It's good to be back on a "normal" budget, but boy will I think twice about spending a dollar!

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

These Happy Days are Yours and Mine: Reconnecting with my passion

Back in June I found out that the Lackland Performing Arts Group (on Lackland AFB, where Mike is stationed) was going to be holding auditions for "Happy Days: A New Musical." I had been meaning to attend meetings for the group for about 6 months, but just hadn't done it. A brush with being on stage in April reminded me how much I enjoyed performing so this seemed like the perfect opportunity to get back in the game.

I reminded myself that this was just a hobby and if I got a chorus part that would be fantastic and if they didn't choose me for any part I would just be happy that I tried. I dutifully prepared my selection, "If I Were a Bell" from Guys and Dolls, a song I had performed on stage as Sarah some 10 years before. I downloaded the instrumental music and recorded myself singing on my iPhone camera (wow, technology has come a long way since I did this stuff!).

When I arrived for the audition, I saw several copied scripts. Women's roles included "Pinky" (Fonzie's girl), "Joanie", "Lori Beth" (Richie's girl), "Marion" or a Pinkette (Pinky's posse). I chose to read for "Lori Beth" and "Marion" (hey, I'm not in high school anymore and there will probably be a long of young 'uns doing this!). I didn't feel like a "Pinky" and "Joanie" felt like too big of a role at this point.

I stepped into the audition and gave them my CD. I began singing and all three directors started writing vigorously. They stopped my music after the first verse. They asked who I'd like to read for and when I told them they said "Go grab the script for Pinky, look it over and come back in." In the end, I was selected to play the part of Pinky!

Over the next 3 months I diligently attended rehearsals (with a 3-week break during my trip to Oklahoma). I was always excited to go to rehearsals and when I was there time went fast. I came home energized and chatty. I was full of stories of who did what that was funny and what song we worked on that night. It was great to be back.

A couple weeks before the first performance things got real. We had costumes and we were working with complete sets and props. This was going to be great!
Act I, Scene 4 at Arnold's
Pinky, Fonzie, Chachi, and Joanie

The performances were great. Nothing went terribly wrong in any of the 4 shows. We had great crowds that were very supportive.
The Pink is in Town!

"What I Dreamed Last Night" with Joanie and Marion

Elvis and James Dean remind The Fonz to keep his collar turned up

Final Bows!

I'm so glad I had the opportunity to participate in this production. I'm also blessed that over 20 people came to see me play Pinky.
Dad and me
Mom and me
Terry and me

Mike even came to 3 of the 4 performances!
Wah wah wah!

And, of course, after the last performance we had a rockin' cast party! Our pianist, Miss Gina, had us over to her beautiful house for some yummy food and karaoke!
LeVon and Ben

Becky

Fosco and Eric singing "You've Lost That Lovin' Feelin'"

Laura and Kendra watch from the sidelines!